It is just one of my diary, i want to share with you now.
Try my best, never give up!
It is an overcast day outside today. The sky is heavy and grey. It is cloudy inside my heart too, because there is a big pain on my back, I don’t know how is it? Just feel I would meet God soon.
I have a bad mood these days, I don’t know why, I want to be happy, but I can’t find it and can’t seize it. I wander for many things, love, marriage, even about career. But they are too foggy for me. I am afraid I would lose my way, and don’t know how should I do? And where’s my point of view …….
God save me, God point a right way for me. And let my eyes be bright, let my mind clearly. God blesses me, and gives me a warm sun to dry my heart. Sends me happy, sends me belief, sends me courage.
I remembered a friend now, I heard a song from him, it is named “try again”, yes, in our life there are many stumble and fall. We shouldn’t lose our heart. But think out what we are searching for? And then try again, never give up, and there will be a better day. There must be a better day. Life is colored, so we should have happiness, sadness, anger and grief. They are all the color of our life. So when we are happy, just laugh loudly, dancing time and time. When we are sad just cry completely, let tears drop like rain. Haha…love will let you free. Hehe….
Let’s put one sentence in our heart, trust myself, never give up, there will be a better day.
Whom to call？
Have you ever had this moment when you suddenly don’t know whom to call when you want accompany? I did!
It was a freezing cold winter. I stood in the street not too far away from home. I had a quarrel with my girlfriend so I slammed the door and went outside. She did ask me to come back but I neglected her and went downstairs anyway! When I am mad with someone, I will see nothing about him/her!
I wanted to drink some beer to release my anger and depression. So I called some of my good friends. It was 10pm at night! The first 3 persons gave me negative answers, though the reasons were so different. One said he had to take care of her girlfriend, who’s having her period. What a perfect reason! The second said he had to prepare the coming exam, which would be taken in about two months’ time. The third one was more ridiculous, cause he asked me to go visit him right away. He told me he had two girls at home drinking with him. He added that something interesting may happen if I joined them. Go to hell! I said. I would not do anything stupid against my girl even when I am angry on her!
Almost being desperate, I made my last try. I called another good friend of mine. He lived about 20 kilometers away from my home. However, he asked me to wait for him and he would be with me soon. He didn’t lie, because I saw him right after I managed to find a small restaurant.
Hi, buddy! What’s the deal? He always says that to me when he meets me. You miss me, don’t you? So I will go: For god’s sake, just shut up and drink.
We took more than 20 bottles and we were all high. He sent me home and told me to be good to my girlfriend. Treasure the one you have before you lose her. That’s what he always tells me. He, however, had no girlfriend since I knew him!
He’s name is Jimmy. My best white man friend! I really miss him now!
When mood strikes
Ms. Grass told me that I had lost my confidence and passion a couple of days ago. I was chatting with her on line through OICQ when I saw the sentence on the screen. I was lost in thought for a while, and then I asked myself: Did I lose something I used to have as kind of advantage? Do I still have the guts to be a salesman and start to generate my fortune from all over again?
Frankly, I am not satisfied with my job at all. Not only because I earn too little to feed myself, but because I know I should deserve something better. I’m now under great pressure, which is given by both me and my girlfriend. People who have less or non overseas working experiences are earning much more money than mine. People who do not speak fluent or even good English are working in some foreign-stated companies, and they are having kind of relaxing lives!
Is this jealousy? I asked myself, trying to figure out the true reason or reasons! I also have my vanity, just like all the others do. So I will not sleep on my current situation and be comforted by those fake promises! I wanna fight for my future!
Christmas is coming. All my friends are talking about how to celebrate this western festival with their husbands/wives, boyfriends/girlfriends or family members. I used to gather a group of friends, take dinner in a luxury restaurant and go singing later. I would spend one thousand Yuan at the very night! But this time, I would rather stay at home and have a candlelight dinner with Amanda! I told her it was the best way to save money and avoid being stuck in the street at mid-night, because few cabs would be available at certain hours! Besides, everyone would take cab on the day and at the night!
I said: Honey, let’s have a romantic dinner! Just two of us, just about home, just about love. She said: Why not? Actually my heart was sobbing, cause I can’t afford to the gift I wanna buy for her! She’s a beautiful girl, who likes to have nice platinum earrings and necklace, fashionable clothes, European stylish boots and nice-looking dustcoats. I can, however, buy none of the above for her! I am a real poor guy now!
When mood strikes, I will keep my mouth shut but my eyes open. I will scan the bottom of my brains and try to find out the beliefs I used to believe, and the oaths I used to make for myself! Where there is a will, there is a way. Now I have one simple goal, to gain back what I used to have!
So I have to forget about all the pressures and just concentrate on the goals I made. They are now like non-achievable missions to me, though!
what is real friendship？
i ask myself what real friendship is.
when i think we are good friends you are not my real good friend actrually.when i think you are a special person in my heart you donot think in the same way as i do. i often wonder if i am as important as you mean to me? sometimes it is hurt to say that it is not the truth. you get hurt when u understand this. i ask myself again what real friendship means.
we had an unhappy time yesterday. i did not want to talk to you anymore. and you did the same to me too. i really feel sad after it and almost apologized to you even it is not my fault. however you can still laugh and chat with others like normal. i realised suddenly that i am not that important to you .you donot even realise that i am angry and sad. furthermore you even forget my birthday this year. actually i am not angry about that as i i often forget others' birthday either. however i wont forget to tell the person how important his or her friendship mean to me. i will give the person a birthday card or a present. it is my way to express my feeling towards my friends. you did not do anything even after my birthday.
am i wrong ? it is impossible for us to become best friends as our interests are so different. we are differnt kinds of people, donot we?
sometimes i think i am alone even i am surrounded by a lot of friends. it is strange feeling, isnot it? maybe i will lead a lonely life. it is not easy to make good friends. after i realise this fact i know that i need to be more independent. to be less helpful and friendly, i will make few friends and get less hurt from them.
how many friends do i really have ? who are my friends ? when i get into trouble those people who lend me a hand are my real friends. sometimes i feel i look like a fool . when i open my heart to you, you hurt it. my heart feel painful,very painful. it is too painful to open for you anymore. goodbye my friend. in order to protect my fragile feeling, i closed my feeling towards you. it is sad to say goodbye, my friend. you donot care about me and you donot really understand me. it is meaningless for us to be friends anymore.
please correct me if there is any mistakes (should be a lot of them)
Too Big To Grow Rapidly？
Too Big To Grow Rapidly ?
----By Tiffany Liu
Microsoft, known as the giant in computing over the world, is confronted with some problems ,which is rather suffering for Gates.
I like chatting via MSN Messenger which is a chatting tool created by Microsoft. This type is my favorite because of its user-friendliness. There, on MSN Messenger, I got a net pal working for the headquarters of Microsoft in Seattle . We are always pleased to have a talk online. I really appreciate the chat with him because he is a native Chinese. And now he has been project manager in one team in Microsoft. Sometimes we have voice chat, during which I could hear the office cleaner went in and put away garbage. I felt he was really admirable. Exactly! He is working for a corporation which is not only the monopoly of PC operating systems but also the master in Web browsers. Undoubtedly, he is one of the world's brightest technologist. So he is. How do I know? I usually logged on during the day-time in vacation when it was nearly the night in USA. I could always met him on MSN. He told me that he was at work. In fact, it was not really overtimes, he said, he was just trying to finish his tasks in hand. It was come up to me that as an employee in such a outstanding multinational, he has taken the equivalent responsibilities. There must be many headaches for him simultaneously. Indeed, all employees in this huge corporation suffer something we, as common people, do think over.
Things happened out of this: in July this year, Kai-Fu Lee bolted from Microsoft for Web search king Google Inc. which is the biggest rival for Gates. Microsoft sued to stop Lee who is the founder of Microsoft’s research lab in China from working for the competitor. However, a state judge ruled that Lee could work for Google with some limitations. It is a win-game for Google and Lee, obviously. Lee smiled broadly and said outside the courtroom that he could not wait to start work the next morning.
Actually, not only Lee, but also so many others talented veterans bolted. And staff inside are full of complaints and gloominess. The proprietor of the Web log called Mini-Microsoft may be the most notorious blogger on corporate life. It posted a stream of anonymous critiques of the company. Its employer called Microsoft a “passionless, process-ridden, lumbering idiot” in a Sept. 4 posting. Yet the blog is also chock full of humor, intelligence, and earnest suggestions for fixing Microsoft.
It seems that the problems from inside the corporation are severe. If this sort of attitude goes on, the huge company will face a big big challenge which is more fatal than ones from outside. Seeing this, how do the management of the corporation deal with it becomes the focus.
Let’s screen the salary, perks and other compensations formed by Gates. In fact, “Microsoft’s compensation moves have created a haves-vs-have-nots culture”, introduced by the Business Week Magazine. New comers work for comfortable but not overly generous wages, while veterans have a lucrative treasure chest of stock options. And a new pay scheme makes the gap wider. This disparity is exacerbated by Microsoft’s rating system.
It is no doubt that Microsoft is changing into a more mature corporation. However, the problem in the front is thorny for Gates and his company. Gates is responsible for product development as extraordinary software architect. All actions can give huge influence to the whole world. Microsoft is big. But whether its size becomes the dominant obstacle for its growth is quite apparent. As an outstanding entrepreneurial guy, Gates should make some effective plans and policies to overcome the difficulties. And he should gain some lesson from this embarrassment that creating a comfortable working environment and profitable compensation to staff is really a significant theme no matter how well-known the name of the corporation is. Maintaining the staff is far more important than innovating a new product for one company. Personnel always comes first.
Today in history
May 19
As Mount St Helens erupted it threw up tons of ash 15 miles high turning day into night
1980: Nine dead after Mount St Helens eruption
England have
At least nine people have died after the massive eruption of Mount St Helens volcano in Washington State, USA.
Many more are missing and the death toll is expected to rise.
A huge cloud of ash has turned day into night for towns and cities across north-western America. People have been told to stay indoors and wear gauze masks. Many roads have been closed, trains halted and aircraft grounded.
Mount St Helens exploded at 0832 local time on 18 May.
Avalanches of hot ash
It triggered an earthquake measuring 5.2 on the Richter scale and the north face of the mountain collapsed in a massive avalanche.
At the same time a giant mushroom-shaped cloud of ash rose 15 miles (24km) into the sky in just 15 minutes. Then avalanches of hot ash, pumice and gas known as pyroclastic flows poured out of the crater.
Westerly winds have blown millions of tons of ash across the United States turning blue skies grey as far as Spokane, Washington - 250 miles (400km) away.
Nearly 150 square miles (240 sq km) of forest has been destroyed and it is believed thousands of wild animals have been killed.
One of those who died was local celebrity 84-year-old Harry Truman. The former president"s namesake had consistently refused to leave his motel at the foot of the mountain beside Spirit Lake.
He stayed with his 16 cats and 18 racoons while about 2,000 people were evacuated from the area in the last few weeks as the mountain threatened to blow.
The lake has been wiped out by the massive force of the eruption along with boiling mud flows triggered by mountain snow that melted in the intense heat.
Dr Bob Christiansen of the US Geological Survey who predicted the huge eruption said another major blast was unlikely.
Zambia"s President Kenneth Kaunda condemned "cowardly action"
1986: South African raids wreck peace bid
Artificially 1969:
The South African troops have launched raids on three neighbouring countries in an effort to destroy bases purportedly used by the guerrilla organisation, the African National Congress (ANC).
At least three people are reported dead after this morning"s co-ordinated attacks on cities in Zambia, Zimbabwe and Botswana by South African warplanes, helicopters and commandos.
The raids have severely jeopardised diplomatic efforts by a Commonwealth mission now in South Africa.
The Commonwealth Eminent Persons Group had been trying to negotiate a peaceful settlement with South Africa"s ruling National Party and Prime Minister PW Botha to bring an end to national strife caused by the apartheid regime.
Five of the seven delegates have already left Cape Town in protest.
Call for sanctions
Along with Angola, Mozambique and Tanzania, the three nations attacked today form the so-called "frontline states" that support the ANC in their struggle against white minority rule. But all three deny providing the ANC with military bases.
There has been widespread condemnation of South Africa in the West and across Southern Africa.
Zambia"s President Kenneth Kaunda called the raids a "dastardly, cowardly action". The government of Botswana issued a statement condemning "this naked act of aggression against our country".
And the Commonwealth Secretary General Sir Shridath Ramphal called the move "a declaration of war" and demanded immediate economic sanctions against South Africa.
But the British Prime Minister Margaret Thatcher and her Foreign Secretary, Sir Geoffrey Howe, while condemning the attacks are ignoring calls for early sanctions against Pretoria.
News of the raids - on Gaborone in Botswana, Zimbabwe"s capital, Harare and Lusaka in Zambia - came in an announcement by the head of the South African Army, Lieutenant General AJ Liebenberg.
"The action taken against the terrorists should be interpreted as indicative of the firm resolve of the Republic of South Africa to use all the means at its disposal against terrorists wherever they may be," he said.
Vocabulary:
avalanche: a fall or slide of a large mass, as of snow or rock, down a mountainside（雪崩，山崩）
pyroclastic: 火成碎屑的
purportedly: 据说的，传说的
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